I started swimming again on Friday. I didn’t all winter because the pool
got too cold but with our recent heat wave (It was 102 here on the coast) all
is toasty again in the pool. I
swim for about an hour doing the breast stroke. I love the balance of it and how it looks in the water. I know I can’t see it when I swim but
my dancer mind has a good imagination.
Anyway, I got in my lap lane, got my goggles on, and dove in and began
my strokes. I found that I
was often catching a bit of water in my mouth. Not doing this thing for about six months had blown my
timing. It took me about 15
minutes to make a lap without missing the right edge of the water. It got me thinking about edges of
things.
Sometimes they are so important that perfection is almost
necessary. Sometimes we need things a bit blurry, almost like squinting your
eyes to see better.
Later the same day I was looking at a wall hanging that I
had found at a garage sale. I
loved the shapes but it had big triangles of mustard yellow and a field of
yellow upon which the main figure rested.
Since I am rarely liking that color, I found some red and green fabric
dye and mixed some up with hot water and decided I would just use a paintbrush
to put it on. I knew it wouldn’t
be an exact edge, but I kind of wanted a more rustic, aged look as I was going
to hang it in my patio. I kind of
reveled in being messy. I didn’t
get the perfect lines along the geometric shapes, and some of the paint ran a
bit. But when I stood back to look
at it. It was PERFECT!
In swimming, the edge between the lip of water and my lips
has to be very precise for maximum glide.
Too much of a head raise slowed me down, too little and I was taking in
water. Hard to know just where to put oneself.
I know this isn’t an earth shaking thought, but I did
muse on the maker of the weaving and how beauty for him or her was probably
based on no mistakes, perfect edges, but later than same object made so
precisely could now be beautiful in a messier looser way.
I suppose there are a few things to extrapolate from
this. First, at my age, I shouldn’t stop
swimming for six months. Second,
it is good remember that things are what they are for NOW. How we see something, use something or
want something will probably be very different later on.
We do tend to want things to remain the same, as it adds
to our illusion of safety and control, but letting things go the way they need
to go can be wonderful too. Adjusting ourselves to now, moving in on what is
being asked in this moment, listening to something other than the old patterned
thought of what we should do… can be lovely.
Have a good week.
Misty
May 18, 2014